I Don't Believe I'm such an asshole God, I'm such a stain I just keep fucking up again and again I don't believe I don't believe That I could be so stupid and so naive I don't believe I don't believe That there is nothing, nothing left for me You crawled inside my mind when you dove into my bed said everything I've ever longed to hear So perfect, so alive, what's inside me sucked me dry Used me up and left me here for dead chorus I crave it desperately, it's a cancer eating me An addiction too intense to be denied Worthless I'm a whore, crawling back for more It's pathetic how I feed off this abuse chorus That there is nothing, nothing left for me You told me that you loved me I believed you loved me And I believed, now I know it was a lie chorus Shame I only see myself reflected in your eyes So all that I believe I am essentially are lies And everything I've hoped to be or ever thought I was Died with your belief in me, so who the hell am I? I don't know if I am real without you What is left of me without you? I don't know what's real without you How can I exist without you? I'm wandering 'round confused Wondering why I try The more that you deny my pain, the more it intensifies I pray for someone to ache for me the way I ache for you If you ignore that I'm alive, I've nothing to cling to chorus Take a stare into this mirror So tired of this life If only you would speak to me or cared if I'm alive Once I swore I would die for you but I never meant it like this chorus What Do I Have To Do? You make it hard to breathe It's as if I'm suffocating And when you're next to me, I can feel your heartbeat through my skin It's makes me sad to think this could be for nothing I wish there was a way A way for you to see inside me I've never felt this way About anyone or anything Tell me... What do I have to do? To make you happy What do I have to do? To make you understand What do I have to do? To make you want me But if I can't make you want me What do I have to do? I know exactly what you're thinking But I swear this time I will not let you down I'm not as selfish as I used to be That was a part of me that never made me proud Right now I think I would try anything Anything at all to keep you satisfied God I hope you see what losing you would do to me All I want is one more chance Tell me... chorus Tell me, tell me What do I have to do? To make you want me What do I have to do? To make you understand What do I have to do? To make you love me But if I can't make you love me Tell me what do I have to do to forget about you? Why I am not here I think I've never been here at all or ever will be I feel like a place Where no one goes anymore Why can't you see that everything's broken? and why can't you see that my life's turned gray? I can't believe in anything sacred When I don't believe that I am real I need someone to break the silence That's screaming in my head And in my soul It seems so bizarre But none of this matters Thoughts disappear, and hopes have died Now I am safe, nothing can hurt me here Why can't you see my need for forgiveness? The truth and the lies, so confused as one I can't believe in anything sacred When I don't believe in anything I need someone to break the silence That's screaming in my head And in my soul I am alone Locked in my memories There's nowhere left for me to hide But I am not real I've made all I am with lies Why does it seem that everything's different? and why does it seem that only you are real? I don't believe in anything sacred So, why do I feel so damned alone? I need someone to break the silence That's screaming in my head And in my soul Inside You I feel your lips I taste your skin I need to know I need to feel you from within As your blood burns through my skin I feel complete I breathe you in It's where you end and I begin If only I could stay here forever So much to tell you So much to give you So much to confide Now that I'm inside you We are flesh, we are one So why do I Feel so much guilt for what I've done As you blood burns through my skin I feel release I breathe you in It's where you end and I begin If only I could stay here forever So much to tell you So much to give you So much to confide Now that I'm inside Now that I'm inside Now that I'm inside you So much to teach me I'm inside you So much to give me I'm inside you So much to show me I'm inside you So much to tell me I'm inside you Falls Apart I'm tangled and broken Left scattered on the floor It's useless now These pieces they can never make me whole This is where it falls apart This is where it falls apart I feel helpless as my everything comes crashing down on me This is where it falls apart This is where it falls apart I feel helpless as my fucking world comes crashing down on me You wither And you blister I watch you burn and peel It's not like you can save me It's not like you even care chorus Crashing down on me I'm finding it so hard to hold on I'm finding it so hard to hold on This is where it falls apart (repeat) Falls apart again So Wrong Wasted thoughts of you Wasted prayers to you Give me back my mind I'm empty inside It's so wrong that I need you It's so wrong that I need abuse It's so wrong that I need you It's so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone What have I become Everything's undone A candle burns here in your honor My soul my shrine I've built for you There's nothing left inside me Nothing left inside but you chorus Can't seem to pretend This night has to end I can't fill this hole You are all I know chorus x 2 It's so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone Crushing Me I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me I'm feeling the weight of everyday life and it's crushing me How much more will it take How much more until it breaks me This world is crushing me (repeat) I spent every last moment since the day you left trying to rebuild the shattered remains of my pathetic life Working to be someone you can be proud of, someone you can love again I have given you everything I have to give, everything I am able to give Taking into consideration your reluctance to anything I have to offer I'm tired of living my life for you I'm tired of living my life for everyone else in this fucking world I'm tired of living I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me I'm feeling the hate of the world and it's crushing me I swallow the hate, betrayal and lies I swallow them whole and shove them deep down inside of me I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me And it's crushing me (repeat) I swallow the hate, betrayal and lies I swallow them whole and shove them deep down inside of me How much more will it take How much more until it breaks me I'm feeling the weight of the world I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me Sleep She's been here so many times before She can't remember when she last felt anything at all But this fear and anger She stares intently at the door Listens for his footsteps She know exactly what's in store and the knowing makes it worse Floating high above her bed Staring at her father's head Wishing one of them were dead Floating high above her bed Staring at her father's head Wishing one of them were dead So this hell would finally end When he calls her daddy's little girl She doesn't hear him When he crushes her she can't feel, her screams are silent Hides in the corners of her mind Where she plays contentedly She escapes inside her dreams chorus x 2 Slipping Away I feel it slipping away I feel it slipping away I gave it all but no one cared I feel it slipping away I feel it slipping away I caught it slipping away I gave it all but no one cared I feel it slipping away No more pain, no more fear I feel it slipping away I feel it slipping away I just can't learn to forget I'm choking on the memories, choking on regret I tried, but I can't find a way To untangle all the pieces after they've been thrown away I feel it slipping (repeat) away I will not suffer this loss of you again and again and again I refuse to continue to live in this perpetual nightmare I decide it ends right here I feel it slipping away I feel it slipping away Everything's slipping away Back