I Don't Believe
I'm such an asshole
God, I'm such a stain
I just keep fucking up again and again

I don't believe
I don't believe
That I could be so stupid and so naive
I don't believe
I don't believe
That there is nothing, nothing left for me

 You crawled inside my mind when you dove into my bed
said everything I've ever longed to hear
So perfect, so alive, what's inside me sucked me dry
Used me up and left me here for dead

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I crave it desperately, it's a cancer eating me
An addiction too intense to be denied
Worthless I'm a whore, crawling back for more
It's pathetic how I feed off this abuse

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That there is nothing, nothing left for me
You told me that you loved me
I believed you loved me
And I believed, now I know it was a lie

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Shame
I only see myself reflected in your eyes
So all that I believe I am essentially are lies
And everything I've hoped to be or ever thought I was
Died with your belief in me, so who the hell am I?

I don't know if I am real without you
What is left of me without you?
I don't know what's real without you
How can I exist without you?

I'm wandering 'round confused
Wondering why I try
The more that you deny my pain, the more it intensifies
I pray for someone to ache for me the way I ache for you
If you ignore that I'm alive, I've nothing to cling to

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Take a stare into this mirror
So tired of this life
If only you would speak to me or cared if I'm alive
Once I swore I would die for you but I never meant it like this

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What Do I Have To Do?
You make it hard to breathe
It's as if I'm suffocating
And when you're next to me, I can feel your heartbeat through my skin
It's makes me sad to think this could be for nothing
I wish there was a way
A way for you to see inside me
I've never felt this way
About anyone or anything
Tell me...

What do I have to do?
To make you happy
What do I have to do?
To make you understand
What do I have to do?
To make you want me
But if I can't make you want me
What do I have to do?

I know exactly what you're thinking
But I swear this time I will not let you down
I'm not as selfish as I used to be
That was a part of me that never made me proud
Right now I think I would try anything
Anything at all to keep you satisfied
God I hope you see what losing you would do to me
All I want is one more chance
Tell me...

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Tell me, tell me
What do I have to do?
To make you want me
What do I have to do?
To make you understand
What do I have to do?
To make you love me
But if I can't make you love me
Tell me what do I have to do to forget about you?
 






Why
I am not here 
I think I've never been here at all or ever will be 
I feel like a place 
Where no one goes anymore 

Why can't you see that everything's broken?
and why can't you see that my life's turned gray? 
I can't believe in anything sacred 
When I don't believe that I am real 

I need someone to break the silence 
That's screaming in my head 
And in my soul

It seems so bizarre 
But none of this matters 
Thoughts disappear, and hopes have died 
Now I am safe, nothing can hurt me here 

Why can't you see my need for forgiveness? 
The truth and the lies, so confused as one 
I can't believe in anything sacred 
When I don't believe in anything 

I need someone to break the silence 
That's screaming in my head 
And in my soul

I am alone 
Locked in my memories 
There's nowhere left for me to hide 
But I am not real 
I've made all I am with lies 

Why does it seem that everything's different? 
and why does it seem that only you are real? 
I don't believe in anything sacred 
So, why do I feel so damned alone? 

I need someone to break the silence 
That's screaming in my head 
And in my soul







Inside You
I feel your lips
I taste your skin
I need to know
 I need to feel you from within
As your blood burns through my skin
I feel complete
I breathe you in
It's where you end and I begin
If only I could stay here forever

So much to tell you
So much to give you
So much to confide
Now that I'm inside you

We are flesh, we are one
So why do I
Feel so much guilt for what I've done
As you blood burns through my skin
I feel release I breathe you in
It's where you end and I begin
If only I could stay here forever
So much to tell you
So much to give you
So much to confide

Now that I'm inside
Now that I'm inside
Now that I'm inside you
So much to teach me
I'm inside you
So much to give me
I'm inside you
So much to show me
I'm inside you
So much to tell me
I'm inside you







Falls Apart
I'm tangled and broken
Left scattered on the floor
It's useless now
These pieces they can never make me whole

This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
I feel helpless as my everything comes crashing down on me
This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
I feel helpless as my fucking world comes crashing down on me

You wither
And you blister
I watch you burn and peel
It's not like you can save me
It's not like you even care

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Crashing down on me
I'm finding it so hard to hold on
I'm finding it so hard to hold on
This is where it falls apart (repeat)
Falls apart again






So Wrong
Wasted thoughts of you
Wasted prayers to you
Give me back my mind
I'm empty inside

It's so wrong that I need you
It's so wrong that I need abuse
It's so wrong that I need you
It's so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone

What have I become
Everything's undone
A candle burns here in your honor
My soul my shrine I've built for you
There's nothing left inside me
Nothing left inside but you

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Can't seem to pretend
This night has to end
I can't fill this hole
You are all I know

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It's so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone


Crushing Me
I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me
I'm feeling the weight of everyday life and it's crushing me
How much more will it take
How much more until it breaks me
This world is crushing me
(repeat)

I spent every last moment since the day you left
trying to rebuild the shattered remains of my pathetic life
Working to be someone you can be proud of, someone you can love again
I have given you everything I have to give, everything I am able to give
Taking into consideration your reluctance to anything I have to offer
I'm tired of living my life for you
I'm tired of living my life for everyone else in this fucking world
I'm tired of living

I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me
I'm feeling the hate of the world and it's crushing me
I swallow the hate, betrayal and lies
I swallow them whole and shove them deep down inside of me
I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me
And it's crushing me (repeat)
I swallow the hate, betrayal and lies
I swallow them whole and shove them deep down inside of me
How much more will it take
How much more until it breaks me
I'm feeling the weight of the world
I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me




Sleep
She's been here so many times before
She can't remember when she last felt anything at all
But this fear and anger
She stares intently at the door
Listens for his footsteps
She know exactly what's in store
and the knowing makes it worse

Floating high above her bed
Staring at her father's head
Wishing one of them were dead
Floating high above her bed
Staring at her father's head
Wishing one of them were dead
So this hell would finally end

When he calls her daddy's little girl
She doesn't hear him
When he crushes her
she can't feel, her screams are silent
Hides in the corners of her mind
Where she plays contentedly
She escapes inside her dreams

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Slipping Away
I feel it slipping away
I feel it slipping away
I gave it all but no one cared
I feel it slipping away
I feel it slipping away
I caught it slipping away
I gave it all but no one cared
I feel it slipping away
No more pain, no more fear
I feel it slipping away
I feel it slipping away
I just can't learn to forget
I'm choking on the memories, choking on regret
I tried, but I can't find a way
To untangle all the pieces after they've been thrown away
I feel it slipping (repeat) away
I will not suffer this loss of you again and again and again
I refuse to continue to live in this perpetual nightmare
I decide it ends right here
I feel it slipping away
I feel it slipping away
Everything's slipping away
 






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