Darkest Days There are times when I'm just a shell when I do not feel anything for anyone all I feel is hollow & bruised used up & miss-used forced to be someone I don't want to be Have I failed somehow or some way will the weight of today finally pull me down to drown in the depths of despair where I am alone except for my rage? My rage.... My pain.... I hate my darkest days Everything I Touch The more I feel the more I die nothing to give nothing inside everything I touch I break (I wanna break you) I scratch and tear until it bleeds I do not want I only need I only need I only need.... everything I touch I break (I wanna break you) How Can I Hold On Back when you were in my life you gave me something that I could live for Now everything's changed and you're gone but I'm still here waiting So how can I hold on with nothing to hold on to Why should I hold on when there's nothing to hold on to Sex made me feel alive but now I'm so bored with mindless passion Drugs were someplace to hide but they've left me feeling cold and empty chorus I thought you were my friend that you were someone I could turn to But now I realize you were a friend when you needed something chorus Drugstore You seduce me lonely in your hell naked and hungry I crawl into your cell a virtual drugstore is piled on your bed I can't resist with your tongue inside my head How can everything be justified by you? you get off on watching me bleed you get off on feeding my disease this time will be perfect you explain but your tongue is deadly as a needle to my vein How can everything be justified by you? How can my demise be justified by you? I'm so tired of living for you touch I'm so tired of needing you so much How can everything be justified by you? when did I decide to be crucified by you? how can everything be justified by you? By you You Complete Me I am lost in the darkness between two worlds and here I'm struggling You're the light I've been seeking cause my whole life there's been something missing Only you Can make me whole Just one touch and You complete me Rescue me from this black hole That's sucked me in and left me dying you're the truth that I've been seeking Cause my whole life I've been lying chorus God I pray you find me worthy of the right to stand beside you And of your truth and of your passion And of the right to sleep beside you chorus Save Yourself I know your life is empty And you hate to face this world alone So you're searching for an angel Someone who can make you whole I cannot save you I can't even save myself I know that you've been damaged your soul has suffered such abuse but I am not your savior I am just as fucked as you (I am just as fucked as you) I cannot save you I can't even save myself Please don't take pity on me my life has been a nightmare my soul is fractured to the bone so if I must be lonely I think I'd rather be alone (I think I'd rather be alone) you cannot save me you can't even save yourself I cannot save you I can't even save myself Haunting Me Everywhere I go I see your face Every sound I hear is the sound of your voice Why are you haunting me Why can't I let you go? So everything about me is a lie At least it seems that way When I look in your eyes The truth scares the shit out of me Who ever said love is blood and love is real Has never felt the way that I feel What does it matter What's done is done and I should Get on with my life Why are you haunting me Well I don't know what it is But I can't seem to make myself forget Was it something that you said Or is it all the guilt inside my head Why are you haunting me Torn Apart I know I should have told you but I was so afraid you'd leave And now there's nothing left to say well nothing you'd believe I never meant to hurt you with the things I couldn't say I promise you tomorrow while denying you today These lies have torn my world apart These lies have torn my world apart These lies have torn my world apart Torn my world apart A darkness grows inside me in fading shades of gray All the colors of the world are slowly sucked away I'm sinking ever deeper to a place that's cold and black I can't believe I've lost you and you're never coming back chorus Soon the night will take me and save me from my pain Cloak me in cold darkness and help me lose your name chorus Sometimes it Hurts Six o'clock in the morning my head is ready to explode I can't believe I made it home alive I don't remember where I went or what I was drinking but I know it's made me sick and I'm not denying that I get this way when I try to get over you I get this way when I try to get over you Sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love Sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love I tried so hard to hate you but it only makes things worse I only end up hating myself and as my hatred grows so do the lies It's hard to face the truth sometimes god I feel so useless god I hate myself when I try to get over you I hate myself how will I ever get over you? chorus After all this time you'd think I'd understand the way you feel but no I only think about myself And it's driving you away I always knew it would one day chorus Drowning I'm drowning in nothing nothing real nothing left nothing I'm losing myself sinking deeper down. Silently leaving this behind nothing left but me I'm hating myself hating everyone hates me now everything has changed everyone has changed but me everyone has changed Desperate Now I keep breaking all the promises that I keep making to myself you'd think by now that I'd be over this instead I'm feeling sorry for myself So why does everything seem so desperate now I should be feeling so alive but it feels like something's missing something's wrong somehow it feels like something deep inside has died So why do I feel desperate now Why do I feel like dying Why do I feel desperate now Why do I feel desperate now I keep breaking all the promises that I keep making to myself but the promises mean nothing to me anymore Circling the drain Spiraling to hell So why do I feel desperate now Why do I feel like dying Why do I feel desperate now Why do I feel desperate now Goodbye So this is where I say goodbye this is where my story ends and if there's on thing I've learned from life It's that it gets you in the end So goodbye my friend Goodbye So goodbye my friend Goodbye When I'm Dead The Thing I Hate (P.O.M.F.) Lost in world of doubt and insecurity Nothing that you hold sacred nothing you believe Your life is a contradiction while you thrive on manipulation I fight to just hold on to what I believe I won't become the thing I hate I won't become the thing I hate I won't become the thing I hate I won't become you You've treated me like I'm a worthless piece of shit You think like you're in control but you make me sick I want to watch you suffer the way that you've made me suffer I want to fuck up everything you've ever loved But I won't become the thing I hate I won't become the thing I hate I won't become you On Your Way Down I hope I see you on your way down I hope you break every bone I hope it kills you on your way down I hope you die alone All of your hate and all of your lies will it be worth it? when all of your friends refuse to be alibis will it be worth it? I'll see you on your way down It's kinda sad to watch you break down you greedy fuck you pissed it all away so who will catch you on your way down you've only got yourself to blame When all your worst fears materialize will it be worth it? there's nobody left who cares you're alive was it worth it? I'll see you on your way down Waking Up Beside You I've been so alone for so long forgotten by the world forgotten to myself your effervescent eyes have awakened me and brushed the dust away but I knew you'd never stay so I memorized the color of your eyes as I lost myself inside you I memorized the way our legs entwined as I drifted off beside you I miss God I miss waking up beside you at night I cling to you I'm so afraid afraid the day will come and I'll wake up and find you gone but you promise that you'd not abandon me and kissed my fears away but I woke up to that day but I had memorized the way our eyes would meet reflected in the bathroom mirror and I memorized your naked silhouette as you slowly brushed your hair I miss God I miss waking up beside you I've been so alone for so long I forgot how much it hurts to wake up so alone but I'd memorized how warm your body felt as you lay half asleep beside me and I memorized the way the sunlight filled the room and played upon your body I miss God I miss waking up beside you Back